I am jus...

I am just going to start by saying that I'm insane. I am completely and totally insane. I just don't get it at all!I've lived in LA for 10 months now, going on 11. In the time that I have lived here, any ability to write has completely left me. For the first 8 months that I lived here, I doubt that I wrote even a dozen pages that entire time. It got to the point where I was beginning to fear that writing was NOT my thing anymore and I'd have to find a new direction once again.Then, as suddenly as it stopped, it started again a few weeks ago. I started an original novel a month ago that I absolutely loved the idea for. To this day I still believe that it's the most creative idea that I've ever had. I intend to stick with it and finish it with every ounce of my being.But then Harry Potter fanfic happened. I got an addiction to reading the stuff, and then the ideas started coming. And. They. Won't. Stop.Now, at this point in time, I have had *five* ideas for Harry Potter fanfics, I believe in the past 2 weeks. Five. Only ONE of those five I have managed to refrain from starting to write. Out of the four that I have started to write now, only ONE is a short story.I haven't touched my novel since the fic ideas started coming. Now, mind you I'm not complaining. I'd rather be writing than not. Sarah keeps saying that she's afraid to start reading HP fic because she knows the same will happen to her and she doesn't want to write any more fanfic. I kept saying the same thing before this happened, but the truth was that I didn't want to write anymore ROSWELL fanfic, because my muse is definitely done with the Roswell universe.The thing is, it's better to be writing something than nothing. I wanted to stop writing fanfic because I didn't want to write Roswell anymore, not because I felt that my writing had grown enough to handle the original stuff. I still have a LOT of growing that I need to do in the writerly sense. A lot. And personally, I have no problem with doing that through various forms of fanfic for as long as necessary. Until I hit a point where I CAN'T grow through fanfic anymore.At this point in time though, I'm just so very happy to be writing again. It just feels so good. Things just fit together better for me when I can write. And that 8 month break was just entirely too long.